- 1) An Explanation of the Spiritual Significance of the Events which have Transpired since June 2013
2) Testimony of the Reconciliation of the David Family
3) How this Relates to You: a Sober Plea
*The statement previously here has been removed, not because I am recanting or because I disagree with any aspect of it, but to avoid further confusion due to doctrinal misunderstanding and potential misrepresentation of the meaning. Please see 1 Pet 3:6 and/or contact me at email@example.com for more explanation.
You can read my account of the Fruit of the Church of Wells here:http://www.
During the months preceding the David family's exit from New Life, the LORD had been strengthening and intensifying the convictions that He had been imparting to me since 2006: These convictions include:
- true conversion causes a person to be radically changed from within: the sinful nature dies, the stony heart is removed, a new heart and spirit are granted, the Holy Spirit comes to dwell, a new creature is made, a person is made to love God wholeheartedly (not sinlessly perfect, but with a conscience cleansed from dead works to serve the living God, and a love for God that far supersedes any other affection that overtakes his life, his desires, his motivations, his convictions...)
- the percentage of those who are truly converted of the total sum of professing Christians is extremely small. This is the case in New Life.
- The true people of God are scattered in large masses of false Christians, starved, asleep, destitute, afflicted, lonely, often dis-fellowshipped by false Christianity, backslidden, NOT PREPARED for Christ's second coming (though I was a strong Calvinist who did not believe that such a state was possible, the LORD had shown me in fall 2012 that this was the reality of the situation of His sleeping bride and that I ought to mourn with God over His bride's terrible estate)
By the time we left New Life, I was broken-hearted, especially to leave the children, but peace and sweet relief flooded my soul and that of our family, for it was not the LORD's good pleasure for us to remain in New Life, that synogogue of Satan, that place where iniquity reigns, and in which resides idolatry of carnality, false religiosity, meaningless sermons and studies and exploits. The place is largely unconverted, with several fallen Christians (people who were once truly converted but in a backslidden or reprobate state (1 Cor 3:1, Gal 5:4, James 4:4, hundreds of others)). There were less than 20 among them that I believed feared God in anywise at the time that I left. May the LORD bring to light the deeds of Mark Lafollette, who knew explicitly that the Lamberts believed and promoted the Free Grace Theology Doctrine as taught by Zane Hodges and yet openly denied it, of Bill Gramer (whom I believe was truly converted) and Dave Meier who craftily forsook righteous judgment, and Rex Bernardo, who acted as a servant of Satan to deceive the masses and promote this heresy. These have done much bloodshed in that place. I cannot neglect naming the Alan Anderstrom; at the time when the heresy was first taught, I shared it with Mr. Anderstrom, who ascertained to me that there was no possibility that the elders of New Life would receive or permit the teaching of such doctrine, but later took upon himself the role of a silent onlooker. For he had been given a measure of light to discern the danger of the heresy, and yet looked on without speaking a word openly. God knows the mischief he had been working behind closed doors. My heart is broken for Jathan Edwards who is currently working as a false prophet, holding his family and true saints back from holy fear and hearkening unto the voice of the Spirit to the true church. And all others who have known and seen the evil done in that place and remained silent, forsaking righteous judgment, even choosing to remain yoked to it and deceived individuals therein, know that you cannot escape the leaven of wickedness and insincerity in that place. If you want to have any hope of receiving the promises of God, you must leave that wicked place (see 2 Cor 6). I love you all. The LORD has seen the innumerable tears of my wailing on your behalf throughout these years. I poured out myself that you might see and know the truth and be set free. Those of you who knew me at any level of intimacy knew that I did. But you were unwilling, and your house is left desolate.
Those of you who observed our family, especially in that year before we left saw a unity and closeness among us. That final year, we were knit together strongly in the doctrines of true Christianity, of standing for true grace which teaches us to deny ungodliness and worldly lusts, and to live soberly, righteously, and Godly in the present age (Tit 2:11-12), and standing against false grace. Surely my father was a mighty support as a male figure, whereby I was not alone as a young woman, and my mother a constant comfort and companion in my daily sorrowing and anguish over your souls. Many of you mocked us, calling us a “three-person-jury” and things like this, but it was a unity in the Spirit of God in the WORD of God, and we were of one spirit when we exited New Life and started our home meetings. Little did we know that though we were true Christians, persecuted for righteousness sake, for regarding the honor of the LORD, we were largely unequipped to start a church. father, though a zealous man of God and prophet, was not anointed for eldership. Yet, the LORD spoke a word to us in our first meeting that where two or three are gathered together in His name He is surely there in our midst (Matt 18:20)! Oh how the LORD came in that first meeting! His presence was undeniably with us and I wept at the freedom I felt from the leaven of hypocrisy and wickedness of the place we had left and the blessed glory of the risen Christ who was with us. Oh He was surely with us!
During those months my heart was drawn to the I'll Be Honest Community because of their large percentage of true Christians, and the doctrinal understanding of the straight gate (the fruits of true Christianity). They were the Godliest people I knew, and I was fed Spiritually in some measure from Paul Washer, Charles Leiter, and Tim Conway. But they were all strong Calvinists as I was at the time, believing in eternal security: that once a person is TRULY converted, he can never fall away finally and irreversibly from the LORD Jesus Christ. A few people whom I believe feared God in some measure contended with me including Mary Jo Nohava, Martha Navara, and Don and Linda Boe. I thought they were innocently deceived and did not understand the sovereignty of God, but I confess to you here, that I was the one deceived. I repent of any statements I made (particularly in the Unity Letter and audio recording on eternal security and the book “The Shepherd's Eternal Covenant” which a few may have received the manuscript of) which conveyed that it is impossible for a born again person to fall away finally and be damned. I was in error. My error was largely due to the my vital experiences of the irresistible grace of the LORD Jesus Christ by which I had been restored innumerable times after falling into sin. I saw how He was keeping me in a mercy and grace which was too compelling for me to resist; it seemed a relentless Fatherly force of discipline and intoxicating love whereby I was ever swept into greater glories and greater conformance to the Person of Christ. So because of these experiences I assumed that it must always be this way, for how else had I remained in the faith? How else could I hope to remain in the faith without this otherworldly compelling tide of sovereignly-wise mercies and judgments upon my soul? And since the Godliest men I knew, those men who understood true conversion taught unconditional eternal security in a way that made sense logically to the carnal mind, I was emotionally attached to this doctrine, so much so that I deeply questioned if any who believe one could fall away had experienced the ongoing saving work of the LORD the way that I had.
The LORD was with us in our family “church”, and we were set to do His will, but the devil proceeded to release a violent flood of his rage against us. A dear friend from the I'll Be Honest Community, Linda Mann connected me to Sean Morris, an elder at the Church of Wells, and Chris Faulkner, an ex-Church of Wells member, who is presently a false prophet and deceiver, transformed into an angel of light. I had no experience either with a certain great measure of anointing that the elders of the Church of Wells had, NOR of false prophets transformed into angels of light. Thus, I was initially very drawn to the Church of Wells, astounded by their zeal and the genuineness of their convictions and faith, and the LORD gave me a burden for the church which caused me to weep and pray for the church and the bride of Christ (the latter I had been doing faithfully already).
Following my introduction to both the Church of Wells and Chris, I had sought the LORD earnestly on the matter of eternal security, and the Spirit commanded me to believe His WORD, that I could fall away if I stopped believing the Gospel of glorious grace, but that if I remain in Christ I am eternally secure and He will keep me as He had been keeping me until the end. I do believe in eternal security. It is a Person! His name is Jesus Christ! There is no security apart from Him, so let us abide in Him that we may be confident and not be ashamed at His coming (1 John 2:28)! My father and mother were convinced of the same, having never acclaimed the 5thpoint of Calvinism prior as strongly as I had.
The story of how the events progressed is in the Account of the Church of Wellshttp://www.
What is the Spiritual significance of this fire? Why was all of hell against me going to the Church of Wells? What does this mean to you? Oh how I would need to direct you to my husband's writings which could speak endlessly on the Spiritual significance, not simply of my own flight, but of the state of the people of God, the voice of the living Christ through His Spirit to the church, the masses of true and false converts sinking away into damnation under the just and righteous wrath of the LAMB because of the deceptions of false prophets, of these peace preachers, even converted men, preaching the promises of God, eternal security, to those who are not savingly related to God, to false converts and the backslidden saints who will perish lest they repent, lest they wake up from their slumber. Oh how I did not fear God as I ought in those days of my Calvinism! Oh how I did not understand the dire situation that I was in, the indescribable forbearance of God's mercy towards me, the need for a clean and pure local church body where Christ would be pleased to dwell and reign and rule through Biblical elders, the unbelief in my own heart of all that the prophets of Scripture have spoken, of the end result of the course of my Calvinism: slothfulness, unawareness, unreadiness, false security, INSECURITY. But Oh how my Christ has rained down mercy upon me and my dear family! For He has turned our hearts, yes, even our souls, unto the WORDS of the risen and living Christ! He has wakened our souls to hear and believe in His call. What is His call? What is His cry? Tis none but to be prepared for the return of the LAMB who was slain who is worthy to receive power, and riches, and wisdom, and honour, and glory, and blessing (Rev5:12). For at midnight there was a cry made! The Bridegroom cometh! For “Behold, He shall come up as clouds, and His chariots shall be as a whirlwind: His horses are swifter than eagles. Woe unto us! For we are spoiled. O Jerusalem, WASH THINE HEART FROM WICKEDNESS THAT THOU MAYEST BE SAVED. How long shall thy vain thoughts lodge within thee? For a voice declareth from Dan, and publisheth affliction from mount Ephraim. Make ye mention to the nations; behold, publish against Jerusalem, that watchers come from a far country, and give out their voice against the cities of Judah. As keepers of a field, are they against her round about; because she hath been rebellious against Me, saith the LORD. Thy way and thy doings have procured these things unto thee; this is thy wickedness, because it is bitter, because it reacheth unto thine heart. My bowels, my bowels! I am pained at my very heart; my heart maketh a noise in me; I cannot hold my peace, because thou hast heard, O my soul, the sound of the trumpet, the alarm of war. Destruction upon destruction is cried; for the whole land is spoiled: suddenly are my tents spoiled, and my curtains in a motherent. How long shall I see the standard, and hear the sound of the trumpet? For My people is foolish, they have not known Me; they are sottish children, and they have none understanding: they are wise to do evil, but to do good they have no knowledge...And when thou art spoiled, what wilt thou do? Though thou clotheth thyself with crimson, though thou deckest thee with ornaments of gold, though thou rentest thy face with painting, in vain shalt thou make thyself fair; thy lovers will despise thee, they will seek thy life. For I have heard a voice as of a woman in travail, and the anguish as of her that bringeth forth her first child, the voice of the daughter of Zion, that bewaileth herself, that spreadeth her hands, saying, Woe is me now! For my soul is wearied because of murderers”(Jer 4:13-22, 30-31)
The LORD has performed good unto my soul, for He has brought me to pastors according to His heart. What do these pastors proclaim? What is His heart in which they are in accordance? Tis so simple and clear: be worthy, unblameable, unrebukeable, perfect (not sinlessly, but in a Biblical sense of having a conscience cleansed from dead works to serve the living God/going from glory to glory/not continually willfully sinning). The cry of the LORD Jesus from His throne is to be prepared for Him, simply to BE RIGHT WITH GOD! The Spirit is calling His church to wake up, to trim her lamps, to prepare for His coming, to make Christ preeminent and LORD over her life, to be cleansed of everything that defiles body and spirit perfecting holiness in the fear of God, to be found loving the saints, being poured out for the Gospel's sake...surely salvation is not wrought by these righteous acts, for her righteous acts are the fine linen GIVEN her to wear (Rev 19:8). They are the inevitable overflowing result of true saving faith in the Gospel of grace! And He is telling us to be prepared because we are not prepared. He is telling us to wake up because we are asleep. He is telling us to heed the warnings of the Spirit because the Spirit warns us of real possibilities of damnation without repentance.
But oh how He will gather His people when they turn at His reproof! Oh how He will pour out His Spirit upon them, be with them and bless them when they fear and obey Him! He will stir their spirits to repair His house. He will turn favorably and mercifully to His people when He sees that they indeed take pleasure in the stones and favour the dust of His temple!
“15 For thus saith the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength: and ye would not.16 But ye said, No; for we will flee upon horses; therefore shall ye flee: and, We will ride upon the swift; therefore shall they that pursue you be swift.17 One thousand shall flee at the rebuke of one; at the rebuke of five shall ye flee: till ye be left as a beacon upon the top of a mountain, and as an ensign on an hill.18 And therefore will the Lordwait, that He may be gracious unto you, and therefore will He be exalted, that He may have mercy upon you: for the Lordis a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for Him.19 For the people shall dwell in Zion at Jerusalem: thou shalt weep no more: He will be very gracious unto thee at the voice of thy cry; when He shall hear it, He will answer thee.20 And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity, and the water of affliction, yet shall not thy teachers be removed into a corner any more, but thine eyes shall see thy teachers:21 And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.22 Ye shall defile also the covering of thy graven images of silver, and the ornament of thy molten images of gold: thou shalt cast them away as a menstruous cloth; thou shalt say unto it, Get thee hence.23 Then shall He give the rain of thy seed, that thou shalt sow the ground withal; and bread of the increase of the earth, and it shall be fat and plenteous: in that day shall thy cattle feed in large pastures.24 The oxen likewise and the young asses that ear the ground shall eat clean provender, which hath been winnowed with the shovel and with the fan.25 And there shall be upon every high mountain, and upon every high hill, rivers and streams of waters in the day of the great slaughter, when the towers fall.26 Moreover the light of the moon shall be as the light of the sun, and the light of the sun shall be sevenfold, as the light of seven days, in the day that the Lordbindeth up the breach of His people, and healeth the stroke of their wound.27 Behold, the name of the Lordcometh from far, burning with his anger, and the burden thereof is heavy: His lips are full of indignation, and His tongue as a devouring fire:28 And His breath, as an overflowing stream, shall reach to the midst of the neck, to sift the nations with the sieve of vanity: and there shall be a bridle in the jaws of the people, causing them to err.29 Ye shall have a song, as in the night when a holy solemnity is kept; and gladness of heart, as when one goeth with a pipe to come into the mountain of the Lord, to the mighty One of Israel.30 And the Lordshall cause His glorious voice to be heard, and shall shew the lighting down of His arm, with the indignation of His anger, and with the flame of a devouring fire, with scattering, and tempest, and hailstones.” (Is 30:15-30).